Struggling February

If i said in earlier post that January was full of joy and happiness, then February is full of pressure and struggle. To sum up the whole posting, February is a Bit*h!

There, i said it!

My skripsi was such a mess, i didn't get any better at tennis and speaking english, i suck in france, demotivation, etc..... This month was very full of desperations.

But, turn out, this bit*h is giving me so much lessons, that i couldn't get away from it.

I have to battle with all of those messes.
I couldn't let myself going down because of those things.

I used to (am used to) be very pessimistic.
If i accomplished something, or doing an excellent job, i couldn't let myself believe that i did that. I kept searching excuses that i wasn't that great.

Then, this month i learn a huge lesson. It's about consistency.
So i set myself to be a new person. I must had a standard to every situation.
I must believe that i am good enough to accomplish something, that i capable to achieve something with my own ability.

There were couple of struggling moment. Sometimes, i can handle it quickly. The other time, i just suck.
But, i don't wanna let that things bother me too much.
If i had a bad day, i just need to move on, and set myself back to the normal condition.

What happened, it happened. Nothing you could to to change it.
But, you can make that as a huge lesson to the future.