Spread the dreams

Tell your dreams to other people!
It might sound like you bragging or something.
But, it has a good chance, both way, whether you really mean it,
or just a rubbish talk.

I've been always confused about what i wanted to be since i was kid,
even till recently.
I keep portraying myself doing so many jobs, and questioning if i would be happy doing one of those.
Turn out, that's not an easy one to figure.

Whether it's me being too picky, or it's me thinking incredibly far away from present,or anything else.
I keep questioning my self, if i take this road, what will i be, will i be good at my job,
will i raise a lot of money, will i be happy.
Even, the word 'happy; sounds like an imaginary word for me now, because i never think i can find it.
But, i won't stop searching.

I read so many motivation stories about life, doing some meditations,
talked to families & friends to comfort myself.
And i've been doing those because sometimes i can get really freaking out so my head felt like it's gonna exploded.

But, thankfully, it seems like i find my way, recently.
I have this dream, that i want to achieve.
I have sort of plans to accomplish it.
But, apparently things ain't never be easy either.
The motivation is on and off.
Sometimes i just feel like i want to give this dreams up,
and then i'm like HELL NO.
I've been working my ass off to find it, i can't just let it go.

So, how to keep this working?

Sometimes, i talk and share my story to my friend, tell them about my dreams,
let them know unachievable it is, share the plans.
It might sounds pathetic, bragging or something else.
But, the whole things remind you that people have already known your story,
some of them might memorize it, some maybe want to hear the rest of your journey (not just a prologue).
Those kind of things give you some sort of burdens that obligate you to finish the dreams somehow, and that you are responsible to keep the dreams alive somehow.

And, this afternoon, i did it again, shared and told a friend of mine about the dreams.
And it hit me, like in the face,
that i am the one who responsible to make my dreams come true.
So i better do something about it.


Good night!
Keep the dreams alive.